wow

the amount of earwax that comes out of my ears is ABSURD.

i've been playing a LOT of Star Wars Bounty Hunter.

My flow of money may be picking up.

I like having only ONE class. at eight in the morning. in the summer.

i like how my parents still get me food. they're awesome.

this one-line-paragraph thing is retarded, sorry i did it.

Eighty

okay, so, this is one of the best weekends i've had in some time.
which really makes me wonder, am i being selfish when i say that? maybe slightly, but overall, given the amount of stress and just general calamity that have gone into my last few weekends, this one, so far, is being pretty tight.

of course, how it works, now that i've said that, it's going to go down paths that i don't like in the next few hours.

this weekend is miserable! i hate it!
(just to be safe)

the biggest thing is i haven't been to work yet. i OUGHT to be irritated about this, but even going TO work is such a hassle that it's really nice to not have to do it at all. I do kinda need a little more money though, if i'm supposed to, you know, eat.

i'm about to be productive and do some writing/research for my classes (both of which end on thursday. huzzah)

time

i cannot get my mp3 playing device to connect to amarok.
and this does not sit well with me. it kinda actually undermines everything i've ever thought of amarok...
okay, no it doesn't.
but still, it's the best program i can use, and what's it doing for me? nothing...
that's not true either really, i like how it populates my last.fm profile so nicely and without trouble.

i'm sure this all has something to do with the fact that i'm using an older version of the software that's not even supposed to be used on this kernel of ubuntu. i might be wrong, but i think amarok 2 handled my device the right way.
if i only i could have the two versions coexist. wow, that'd be so great. alas.

flossing is a ridiculously great thing to do.

similar difference.

i just spent the better part of two minutes trying to write about the title of this post, which is now not even what it originally was.

anyway, i'm feeling really kinda cool with my mythology class.
my history class... well, i hope my first paper was satisfactory.

i just remembered that a really cool recent James Bond movie is on TV right now. and i wanted to watch it. hm. well, i've seen it before, i can afford to jump in later than the beginning.

on monday night, i bought two bags of rippled potato chips for five dollars, and i ate them all with little assistance from other people. but i just NOW finished them off. so, i guess that's something to be thankful for.

but, you know, that brings up something that's been occuring to me with a refreshing amount of frequency as of late, which is that, financially, God's really been blessing me a lot. like, my parents are still graciously paying for this apartment (and next month is the final ridiculously-priced month) and after that, i wanted to live in the area on my own support, but that would be SO difficult. And my work situation is a little weird, and i'm not really able to work at my workplace at the moment, but i have gotten some money from it so far, and the fact that that money will probably (but as always, not definitely) sustain me for a while, if i'm prudent about it, is very comforting.
and i don't know how things will be after ... you know, next month, but ... i'm doing what i can to be faithful. and i think that the less i even so much as think about it, the sooner Christ will work it out. because it tends to be that i make things really drastically awful when i start trying to solve them prematurely.

i am so tired.

did it, didn't

i've undergone the only difficulties that i will have with bicycles for the forseeable future.
i got one from home, and the tires consequently turned out to be flat.
that bike was replaced (mostly in my absence) and that bike evidently came without any of the extremeties fastened on. (the seat and handlebars came loose within hours, give or take)

so i'm just gonna stick with good ole reliable WALKING

yeah.

cuz i start summer classes tomorrow and i will not put up with a lemon bicycle. a thing which i didn't even know existed.

fm > streaming. sometimes.

so, it seems to me like i tend to update when i'm at school, and not at home.
maybe it's just my imagination though. i should check.
anyway, i'm back here, eagerly anticipating just what the decision will be from the manager of this small restaurant in town, on whether or not they hire me.
which small restaurant?
this one.
please join with me in acknowledging how hilarious it would be if i were to work at such a place.
but i'm oddly optimistic about it, cuz i feel like i've already built up some rapport with the manager, who's young and busy and whatnot. so, like i said, i'm waiting, hoping that when she calls, she says "psh, yeah, of course you're hired."
but you can't guarantee any of that.
so here i am. being patient, faithful, trusting, and so forth.

and soon i'll do the other normal things that i do when i'm here and not taking classes.
(WHICH by the way, start right after memorial day)

discovery

a title which, fortunately, makes sense on multiple levels.

yeah, i'm sure i've written about this somewhere before, or at least talked about this to over a hundred dozen people, but, going through music that you heard in short order, distant in the past, is awesome. That is, when you've suddenly grown and matured and whatnot, and you listen to MORE of that particular music, and in a different way.

I do this with Jars of Clay ALL THE TIME

but i just recently acquired the full album of Commencement by Deadsy, which i'm sure isn't something that a lot of readers here would be into, but i personally think it's quite crazy. in a good way.

I also kinda have this happen with Dvorak every now and then, too. or maybe that's Tchaikovsky, i dunno. point being, it's a common phenomenon with me.

is everyone aware of everyone else's knowledge here?

occasionally, i like life.
then i have no classes and i LOVE it.
then something else happens and i feel worse than i did to begin with.
you maybe wondering "what are you even talking about?"
or just thinking "wow, and i thought I was messed up."
precisely.

... whatever the cost, thou hast taught me to say it is well, it is well with my soul ...
♫ ♥ blah blah

recalcitrance

ah nuts, i'd been forgetting to write here.

anyway...

i've probably walked a little more than mile today. and after i'm done stuff here at my place, i'm probably going to make the same walk again. ahhhhh. GREAT day for such a walk, yes? yes.

so, what else ... i'm finished with my classes. and by classes, i mean the time spent in a classroom receiving instruction. i now have four finals; one per day for the rest of the week. thereby giving me time to study and just generally DO stuff. like apply for work.

i'm SO ... ambivalent. ;)

PS what better time to have leftover ham than Swine Flu season?

collections

so, i'm sitting here, as usual, in my school's radio station.
we've got an annual battle of the bands tonight and i'm doing the last of tomorrow's homework now, so that i can stay up on the late side without worrying about repercussions that are too harsh.

standing in direct opposition to what i thought/wrote earlier today, i probably won't be able to squeeze a nap in. and i won't be getting much sleep tonight. ggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

but life is still great. or at least marginally great.
and it'll only get better, i think.
siiiiigh.

necktie

so, i'm glad, my mp3 player hasn't been acting up recently.
and, for some reason, my eyes have gotten less accustomed to having contacts in them. GRR. not good.
it's been almost a day since i've showered.
this post is stupid.
i wish i had a decent, sensible, but brief story to tell, but i don't. they're all long, or dumb, or aggravating, or something negative.
oh well

sane?

hmm.
siigh.
ever?

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button was, as a film, great.
but i had some personal things that made parts of it a little ... i dunno. sour.

on the other hand, don't most sour things eventually turn sweet?
yes... ;)

(of course, normally, they then dissolve, so it's not a perfect analogy, but if you stop at the second step, it's unbelievably amazing to see from that perspective)

so there are these emotions... nevermind

i had a really sore throat for half the week.
maybe because i ate someone's leftover pasta, with her fork.
but maybe just because of the weather and my attempts to be adaptible. (viz. not wearing a jacket)

but no matter. it's all congestion now. and i just need to cough it up.
(that's the worst pun i've written in a while)

hmph

dear philosophy reading,
i dare you to be interesting.
although, you are all about Descartes for the time being, so you ought to be tolerable at the very least. we'll see, though.

it all boils down to that i'm probably gonna be stuck in the entire class when i'd rather be at a radio station event that starts at the same time. for philosophy, we've got to write an essay, WHILE in class. i'm gonna see if i can get away with doing a half-hour one and not a fifty-minute one. i mean, carpal tunnel syndrome is still real, i think, and i get it.
now, if i could TYPE it... well, we'd be in business there, maybe i'd even want to stay the 50 minutes if that were the case. but i think that'd be point-defeating for what the instructor wants out of the assignment.
so, reading it is. and some sycophantic behavior, if i can manage it.

sarcophagus :

one of my favorite words.

so, i got my newest hat!!!!!
i'm afraid to break it in...
but it's still excellent.

anyway, it's weird being home, AND skipping classes.
but i'd better not suffer too much after the classes i'm skipping. heheheeee

my goodness. i was recently reacquainted with one of my favorite redolences.
(yes, i used a thesaurus. you should too.)

might as well

which is to say, write an entry in the radio station where i waste most of my life.

literally in the course of writing that sentence, i remembered that i was gonna sit here today and write my part of a group paper that's due this upcoming monday.
so, i think i'll go do that now...

i just want to say, God is great for giving me so many funds for the amount of stuff that i buy. now, funding for things like rent and tuition are a different thing, but ... oh well. i'll get there someday. just, soon, i hope.

tarpaulin

i'm really sad if Peter's abrasive Twitter updates are gonna just drop off, the way he predicted that they might. i mean, not REALLY sad, but, they were funny, so, having one more often than 'now and then' would probably be cool.

i'm back in my school apartment now. the events of my spring break week were:

1. visiting my old workplace a couple of times.


2. stopping by madrigals practice


3. missing a party one of my friends was throwing in town here


4. seeing Watchmen


5. forgetting to do some homework for a couple of my classes

in fact, i hope i do alright at getting back into my schooltime routine. ugh.

and the week had its normal mercurial ups and downs, but i think i noticed them more without homework to do, or a radio studio to sit in.
siiiiiiggghhhh...
and today's weather was SPENTACULARIOUS so that was nice.

tandoori tonight

^ that's right.

I just now was surprised to realize that i've updated my xanga and twitter more in the past ... day, than i have this thing. hmmmm...

anyway, yeah, it's a shame that my school decided to schedule our so-called 'Spring Break' at the 'tail-end' of the WINTER. i'm used to these kinds of mistakes, though, so i'm mostly alright with snow. it's still not great stuff, but i'm alright with it.

i wonder, though... will i be able to get anything done around here today?

preconceptivism

I didn't do well on at least one of the tests i took today.

just when i think my battle with acne is over, it isn't.

i'm somewhat tired.

i'm very content.

i'm slightly sad.

siigh.

when?

edit: (twitter.com/atenga)

working on it

so, my room's been getting more and more cluttered, especially since i was dealing with some kind of eye-infection.
actually, i still am somewhat, because vision out of my right eye is a little hazy, for whatever reason. i'm pretty sure this became an issue because of my contact lenses, so, hopefully, not wearing contacts at all for some time will solve the problem, whatever it is.

when you're hungry, nothing hits the spot like absolutely anything you can get your hands on.